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Desperate Dan
Regarding the tradition of artists seducing their models, or models seducing the artists – whichever it is.
It happened.
With Conservative Jeremy. Gifted Jeremy of the Pent-Up Passion. Muscular, athletic, young, macho Jeremy-Of-Few-Words.
It was whisky. It was the Bonfire Party. He was up for it. A night on the hearthrug in front of his coal burner. He was sick halfway through.
Stupidly though, I got attached, due to that girl thing of thinking sex is meaningful. And he hated me for that, so didn’t employ me again.
In the morning when we woke up he pulled me back on top of him. He definitely did want me.
Subject
Hold out your pencil and look at me,
measure angles, how my thigh hangs,
white shins, rib-bones, nipples,
rippled stomach, this patch of scrappy hair,
but do not adjust my pose using your hands
or ask after my other life, or offer your
home-made flapjack, nor expect me to like
your artwork, nor to smile at you
or blush instead of looking straight back.
You fetch a palette thick with paint and
knife it on, eyes flicking up from the canvas,
eyes that clunk and lock with mine like
machine parts then disengage
as you score into it.